I’ve been on hiatus. I’ve had quite a busy summer. I moved two time during the summer. and the last time was right before school started. The entire summer was me adjusting to a new city, trying to figure out which way to move through my life and what kind of artist do I really want to be. I am not stuck, but I am wandering and soaking new things that come through my way. I’ve still been writing and drawing, but I just felt that it was not my time to post it online. I wanted to be disconnected for a while, from everything. But now that my life was become a little more grounded and I’ve finally settled in the new apartment, it’s time for me to start again.
This isn’t going to a poem or pictures like I’ve normally been posting. It’s for anyone who struggles with a mental illness. I’ve recently had someone who attempted suicide. Luckily, they are currently seeking help. I will not really go into further detail with it because I will keep the details in private. However, I struggled with mental illness all my life. I’ve had it since I reached puberty. I’m not here to sugar coat things and let you know everything is fine and dandy. Because it isn’t. The hardest part with having a mental illness is figuring out what’s the best solution to make things easier for YOU to deal with it. The best way to find out what works for you is to seek help. Everyone is different and even if two people struggle with the same illness, they may have different ways to ease it. If you are struggling with anything right now, please know that their is someone out there that’s is willing to help you. If you feel like nobody is there to talk, please email me. I may not know you, but I will try my best to help. You are loved and you are worthy of being alive. I know sometimes we want to figure things out on our own and are scared to reach out for help. I know because I’m like that. It took me years for finally admitting that I have a problem. I’m happy to admit that I have found things that I’m happy to live for, including myself. But it’s a constant struggle. So take one step a time. You are a beautiful person. You may struggle with a hard burden on your back, but please know there are people out there who love you. You don’t have to deal with this alone. Life is worth living because you make it worth it.
If anyone needs help, please don’t be afraid email me.
poetry. don’t leave me, while I’m sleeping. wake me up so I can see you one last time.